4 years of friendship

oh god..
im so pissed off today
just had a conflict with one of my "bestest fren"
seriously,i don't wish to bragged along for what had happened
i've heard diffrent stories from you and her
i know im diffrent from you girls,right? is that what you girls think?
come and tell me straight,you guys are just finding
place and time to talked/gossips...whatever bout me
like what the hell?
do you think i should care all this? when n-level is round de corner?
eh please lah,im sick and tired of this problems.
enough ah for what had happened during de last two years.
i already forgotten bout it,i had forgave you even though its really a pain in de ass
over what you've did to us.
if it is true that you said that it was not you who started it first.
well i have to say im sorry.
and i dont wished to blame the another party
i just want you guys to do or say whatever you guys need to
im so stressed right now,head wires already?
prelim is just another two weeks.and i had not even finish my
art preparations..n level art prepartory ? oh good,help me please
math? i had not even revise a thing ..
seriously im very dissapointed in you guys
you guys took things for granted,i've done my part
as a friend..gave you all what you need;seriously
im so sad and dissapointed..now that you girls make me lose trust on you,
im hoping to meet a trustworthy friend who i can share my problems with.
i feel so low :(
Wouldn't it be better if we just let go, and let people be who they are?
Then we'd be able to see them as they are
with all their beauty and goodness in which we take joy,
and with all their faults which we can also see in ourselves.
i swear i give up :(