-Wednesday, June 4, 2008 @ 12:27 PM ♥
yours truly,daisy
The best thing about tonight is that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before ?
Could it be that we have been this way before ?
I desperately need to tell you something, but it’s not easy.
Every time I go to tell you,my words get caught in my throat.
I can't tell if it’s good or bad, this feeling.
I just know that I feel it, I feel the pain.
My heart is screaming, but my words aren't there.
The feeling won't go away.
I feel like my heart is being crushed, and its slowly killing me.
My mind is filled with unwanted thoughts,thoughts that make my eyes burn,and my face drip with sweat.
I can't think.
Every muscle in my weak body gets tense.
I'm overcome with fear, I can't help but cry.
Day by day the crying gets worse.
I try to relax and take a deep breath,but every time I try, I panic, and I choke.
I'm worried about you.
I worry about you because I care.
I care so much about you.
I love you and I'm scared.
I'm scared that my paranoia will completely take over,and I'd lose you.
Not being able to hear your voice for hours at a time,and not being able to hold you for days,and desperately wanting to look into your loving, deep blue eyes is what's killing me.
Can't you see that I need you?
When you kissed me with your soft lips, I saw stars.
When you told me those three little words-I love you,
I knew that those stars I saw, will always belong to you...
My paranoia won't go away.
I know that if I see you, and hold you- it might disappear,and with it...
it will take all of my pain and fear.
I know that if I hear your reassuring words in my ears,
I'll be OK, and some paranoia will go away.
I need to know if you're alright!
If something happened to you,I really don't know if I'd be able to handle it.
I don't know what I'd do. I need you....
I need you to be here with me...
